*AHHHHHH!!!!!!* I'm sooooooo SHOCKED!!! He did it!!!!!!
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I am actually I'm out of the house no
yesterday was yesterday it was a long
day didn't seem like it because my blog
look like was so short but my day was
just long in general because potty
training
esra which updates she is doing
fantastic still so I put a diaper on her
last night and we had a little talk and
I told her that mommy's putting a diaper
on you but that's just for bedtime and
then
I told her I said but if you wake up up
and you have to go peepee on the toilet
mama will take you so shouldn't wake up
but she woke up with a dry diaper Hey
so if she can continue to wake up with a
dry diaper for the next probably week -
maybe we can have then I will go ahead
and just take diapers away from her
altogether and she will transition to
sleeping without a diaper at all which
I'm aware there's gonna be an accident
or so but what you do when you're potty
training a child but she didn't really
really good this morning she was sitting
at the table having breakfast with her
dad see that's just it is she got too
busy and she kind of waited till the
last minute so she was like Danny a
Google TV a Google TV so by the time
holy you know and her ran to the
bathroom she tripled a little bit nerdy
Emmys but for the most part she made it
into the toilet
and so but in the yesterday the two
times she had the accident was when
she's playing with Maya and I think she
just got too busy and just kind of
forgot and it was my fault too because I
should have been reminding her because
that's what I have been doing all the
whole day yesterday was reminding you
know once an hour go potty in the
bathroom you know by last night she was
putting herself on the toilet and so she
didn't even need our help and then the
other time she had an accident was when
she was sitting at the table eating some
cake then I think she just got a little
too busy with her cake and forgotten
that she that was when I was closing my
phone I was like but again my fault
because I passed the hour and she was
busy and she just hasn't figured out a
hundred percent that concept of who I
got another bathroom let's stop
everything and go so yeah pretty
interesting but I am so so so so so
excited I am just like I told all my
loss I was like I feel like we're like
entering a new phase with our kids you
know because here soon you know we're
gonna be out of diapers and it's gonna
be a difference because I have dealt
with diapers for
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like 25 something years because I
started helping with child care when I
was 14 and I'm 37 I still have two in
diapers which I'm not you know working
anymore but I'm still doing divers so
it's gonna be a whole new face like not
having to worry about you know kids
needing to change and it's gonna be it's
gonna be nice it really is I am so happy
like I was like I'm ready for this phase
where we can just jump in the car and go
no it's gonna become a little bit
different though because we're used to
the kids just wearing a diaper and we
just change them you know so we don't
have to worry about where we're at what
we're doing if the kids gotta go to the
bathroom like we don't have to worry
about any of that and now it's like oh
I've got to make sure that you know I've
got everything on board and toilet in
the back but it's open I would rather
that then kids in diapers at this point
anyways it is 9:30 well almost 935 I am
on my way to the doctor's so yesterday I
had told you guys that my doctor wanted
to see me well he want to see me today
but I didn't have a scheduled
appointment so he needed me to call at
7:30 this morning and do a same-day
appointment so I called a 7:30
she is like you come in at 10:00 I'm
like yeah that's fine
so got up and showered and I ate my
breakfast right here in the car before I
even left the driveway which was oatmeal
and I am trying to keep my water and on
my way to the doctor's so we'll see he's
been having me monitor my blood pressure
since I had my machine since I got my
machine again and there's been a few
high ratings not too many but they're
having a few I noticed that when I stand
up and do my reading so he wants me to
do one sitting down and one standing up
so that's what I've been doing and I
have noticed that my blood pressure does
drop when I am sitting down to standing
up it does drop it comes down low so I'm
really curious to know if that's what's
going on is maybe my blood pressure is
dropping to like really quickly so maybe
that's why I'm getting not dizzy feeling
so we'll see what he says and then I
took my blood pressure after my shower
this morning just to do another recheck
and it was just a little elevated not
bad but it was just a little elevated so
oh you know what I'm gonna go
gonna be stuck in traffic if I don't so
anyways
I'm thinking that you know that could
just be why I'm having those feelings of
dizzy blackout filling this because if
I'm standing and I'm standing up and
like the blood is rushing out so quickly
then maybe because I feel like I don't
know really how to describe it other
than when you have your head down and
then you pick it up really quick and you
kind of feel it you could almost hear
the water machine like a weird faint
like rushing noise that's kind of what
it feels like when I'm laying down so I
don't know if that has anything to do
with my feeling of that funky feeling in
my mind brain whatever
so we'll see what he says
but otherwise I'm feeling really really
really good me and Ollie are changing
our schedules around a little bit
excuse me I am so we're gonna go ahead
and start getting the family
used to going to bed early and waking up
early he just feels like one he said
that he feels like it would help us feel
like beneficially like during the day
because normally we don't get up
and typically I mean I do I always get
up early like I'm not joking I really do
give up early every single morning
because during school hours I have to
get up early because I have to get
Jeremiah ready for school so for him I
have to be up early to do that and with
and then with that then s4 wakes up and
then you know my day has started but for
him he doesn't usually typically come
out of the room unless he has to come
out of the room earlier he doesn't come
out of the room until at least ten
o'clock sometimes even longer so
sorry guys right now
move around all this traffic are not
traffic road construction anyways so we
talked about a last night he was like
you know I think if we try to go to bed
earlier and wake up earlier how do you
think that would be and I was like for
me I think I'm totally came for that I
was like I have no problems going to bed
early or at least putting the kids to
bed early and getting up early because
I'm are he odd but at least I'll get a
little bit more sleep because he
typically likes to stay up until about
one o'clock in the morning so I'm going
to bed
but I'm I actually fall asleep was
probably around 2:00 and then I'm back
up at 7:00
so for me I'm I'm not getting a full
amount of sleep and so I am just like
yesterday was oh
yesterday was hard for me like I have
never and not remember ever being that
tired that I literally could not keep my
eyes open like I was falling asleep
everywhere I was turning and I had to
stay away because I was the only one
home with the kids and with potty
training I swear I couldn't just like
like oh I'm in a crash so I mean I had
to stay awake and I did everything to
get energy I tried to drink a coffee I
which I made a coffee at home and look I
don't know what I did but for some
reason I could really taste the
oh no and I made almond milk coffees
before and I've never had a problem but
I was having a problem yesterday so I
think I'm just gonna switch to one
percent milk and just see what the
difference is on the calories I know
that almond milk is a lot more healthier
and I do know that it's less in calories
but on the other hand I if I can't I
mean if I'm not liking the flavor of it
why am I only go No this coming month so
December since we're already at the end
of our month December I am going to
really really really really try and cut
our spending is like literally either
have or whatever I can do because I mean
it's we're like the thing is is that for
me I I mean my coffees are five ok just
say five dollars am a day and you times
that by every single day because I get a
coffee every single day and I never used
to do that but I think because that's
like my one thing that I get for a tree
is why I do that but if I do you know a
few times that and that's how much money
and that doesn't include your uh all
these red poles that he drinks which are
almost five bucks every day - so you're
talking ten dollars a day just on drinks
just drinks we're not talking anything
else and I just I can't I I really
cannot fathom the amount of money that
we're spending just on fluid so I am
going to invest a little bit of money
this month into my stuff to make my
coffees at home which I already have my
mix I just need which I'll probably get
another one just because if I'm gonna be
making them at home every day that's
totally cool
and they're only like two bucks for the
bottle so I mean still you think I mean
that's cheaper than just getting one
coffee in the day so that would pay for
right there but I'm thinking of just
getting the stuff to make my iced
coffees up whom and that's it life you
know I mean it is what it is
like I would rather do that and not have
to spend five bucks every single day I
mean I can't hardly even enjoy my
coffees anymore because I know how much
they are and that's just I don't I have
no really hard time like I said I really
really really really am trying to want
to save as much as I can
especially because you know I do want to
start this other business up and if I'm
going to do that we have to start saving
in other areas because to start this
business it's gonna cost us it's gonna
cost us some money which is fine but
it's not fine if I'm not willing to you
know sacrifice in other areas to make it
work so I'm gonna do what I can and
budget a lot better for December with
our spin Dean's and this coming month so
December because November November we
did eat out quite a few times actually
more than my liking and so I already
told Ollie I told him this last week
that
the old email thing is not gonna happen
in these over her like it's not we're
going to get our mills and we're gonna
cook them at home and we're going to key
nutritiously and that's that and so he
totally great because I mean he doesn't
he's not typically one that likes to eat
out and he will especially if we're just
like don't feel like it but we need to
become more prepared for like the days
that he goes to the auction that I know
he's not going to come home until later
then we need to have our back-up plan
for me to cook that night or something
but not be like okay well you're gone x
y&z night so because we're gonna eat out
because that's just not an option so I'm
gonna sit down today I think if I get a
chance or sometime within the next day
or two and make a complete shopping list
of everything that we need and go from
there because we don't have anything
going on though for December on our plan
we have nothing going on Jeremiah does
have his two-week winter break
I think that starts on 90 1937
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so I don't know we shall see
but anyways well I am almost here
anyways I am almost at the doctor's so
I'm going to
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check off for a minute I'm also gonna
check my throat because I woke up this
morning with a little bit of a sore
throat not nothing you really like bad
it's just a little tender so I don't
know I might have suffered extra hard
last night
I mean it's huh with me it's very easy
so I am a snore sometimes not all the
time sometimes and I sleep with a fan on
my face no matter what every single
night I have to have a fan on my face I
don't care if it is - one out or even -
arrow I will sleep with a fan on my face
me and Esther both she is because she
has slept with me since she was a
newborn Jane now she cannot sleep
without the fan either like she will
tell me Mommy I need the fan always look
what you've caused I'm like her
anyway so I'm gonna check off though and
then I will check him with you guys so
it's like you know the doctors and
filling in okey I am in I'm back I'm
back I'm so thirsty sorry
doctor's appointment went fantastic my
readings of my blood pressure were in
normal range which thank goodness
and then we calibrated my machine with
their machine and we're pretty much
closed on like my machine is not off in
numbers so that's good because I just
bought this machine again anyone I had
and it was a good machine I had it just
I don't know why it bugged out on me
like it did but okay things happen
anyways so it was but the readings were
really good today he said that he
doesn't with looking at what I've had so
far of like measurements and readings
and stuff he said that he doesn't feel
like he needs to put me on any type of
blood pressure because medicine because
he said that he doesn't want me to like
start taking a medicine in here I don't
really have blood pressure problems and
then drop to low so he doesn't feel
confident enough to go ahead and do that
just yet he said you know if he seemed
the number staying high like you know
one 60s
or numbers over 100 on the bottom then
he would consider giving me something to
bring those down some he said but
honestly he's like with you losing
weight and everything he's like honestly
Amy I think you're gonna start to really
notice things coming down rather than
staying up he's like you know that's the
one highlight about you know losing
weight is that you do you physically
start getting better and so and so
anyways he said that no everything went
really good with my blood pressure he
said that I could just be getting that
dizzy faint he feeling from being
dehydrated or moving like too fast from
you know one from sitting to standing or
laying to sitting however my my Bloods
rushing so fast and that he said well
you know it could be because my body is
changing so much already because of
everything that it's going through that
it could just be that you know it's
trying to catch up with everything you
know and all the changes and so
again he said that he is confident that
that is going to take care of himself
that it's not blood pressure related
that I will continue to measure my blood
pressure three times a day and see what
my radians continue to be but for now he
doesn't see anything wrong with it my
weight is continuing to decline which is
awesome that is such a great feeling
when you get to be told by your doctor
that he is so proud of you and you know
it means a lot because he has been my
doctor like I had said before since I
was 16 years old so he has been with me
through thick and thin not typically
thin but you don't know what I mean like
the good and the bad and you know he has
never made me feel bad about my weight
but you know he's always encouraged me
to you know want to become healthy
though and so with this I think he has
just become even more proud because his
work is paying off you know in the sense
of just being patient with me and you
know allowing me to change as the time
was ready to change rather than you know
changing because I had to change
so he was it was really nice to feel
that he was very proud of me and then
what else I have to go in within the
next two months and go get my my blood
sugars read and what else I need to get
my thyroid rechecked again and then I
have another appointment with him at the
end of January so that will be when we
follow up with all of the results and
stuff unless he see something with the
results from my blood work and stuff
then of course I would see him earlier
but yeah I am so excited like I just
feel so good because I'm finally taking
my health serious you know and I'm
finally putting my health first and
that's a really good feeling when you're
not used to that because you've just let
yourself fall behind
because you just didn't feel the need to
take care of yourself but when you
finally decide that hey you know I don't
want to die early and I want to be here
for my own self but also for my children
and for my husband
it's a great feeling to and doing
everything that I need to do to make
sure that I am in good hands so anyways
that is the update with my dog to us now
I am heading back home and see what my
husband I need to see what he's doing
I really need to what the mergers are
like I really really need to get the
purchase order so I don't know exactly
what his plan is I know we have to stick
around a toilet somewhere or put the
toilet in the car
hi teacher because with her potty
training I don't want in me since her
feeling like she can't keep with her you
know going honey into it was she's
supposed to sew
she definitely definitely definitely out
of toilet so it's what I'm gonna go home
and do is load up the toilet the potty
chair and then see what he wants to do
and then go from there because at some
point today I need some mommy time
because I have not had a break and for a
good minute so momma is gonna take a
break for a little bit and it's gonna be
nice
so anyways I will check in with you guys
in a little bit I am going to call him
right now and let him know I'm on my way
and to see what he wants to do from
there so anyways I will catch you guys
in a little bit it's so cold it's 50
degrees up so I went home really quick
she's gonna go buddy
we are grabbing drinks really quick and
then at some point I'm gonna go to the
grocery store I don't know if he's gonna
go with me or not but I really need to
go and get some odds and ends so we are
doing our first outing with Miss Ezra
potty training so when we left I made
sure she sat on the toilet and so now
I'm just she's like mommy I could go
potty I'm like oh no I'm like okay well
we have a potty chair in here for a
reason
so she hopefully is gonna use the
restroom
and yeah did she go all right well at
least she gets the drift of what she's
doing anyways I think a little bit of
his like fun you know just to test it
out she just need to try it just just
put her name on it a little bit so
anyways yes she is
doing really good though she went this
morning while mommy was gone at the
doctor's no no okay that's all right she
just needed to test it she need to try
and break it in you know but I put like
trash bags in there and if she's got to
go number two then I'll just put a trash
bag inside the trash can or inside the
trash man inside the toilet bowl and she
can do her duty and we'll tie it up and
throw it away so anyways hopefully she's
going to take a little merit
we're gonna run to the bank and excuse
the mess y'all I just had weight hit a
man for louder please so we had to go to
Michael's because he has some car thing
or something I don't know he's told me
some straight BS and I listened to him
of course you know so he goes into
Michael's and we're sitting in your fur
quite a while
and he comes out I didn't even see him
come out and he's like who knocks on the
window so I roll my window down like
okay what do you need
you can see pulled up my cricket oh my
god I'm so excited I was like uh I
wanted to cry I literally wanted to cry
I was so excited I was like oh my god
you did it you got it I was not
expecting it because you know we talked
about not getting it until I reach my
goal and stuff which obviously I'm still
going for my goal that's obviously I'm
hitting it man I am going to lose my
balance by my hundred pound mark up not
underpants oh I don't lose my hundred
pound mark by uh no they are January
first but anyways I was so excited like
he totally caught me off guard with that
one I was not even excited I wasn't
expecting
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so anyways yes I got it
so I still can't like do anything with
it right now I can do like all the
research and stuff like I've been doing
with it
but I can't do like I can't work with it
I can't do it I can't use it or anything
cuz they don't have anything that goes
with it
because you have to get like the Matt
send the tools and all that stuff my
gosh
little by little you know we will get
those items and stuff I did a lot of
price check on tumblers and on my shirts
panties and maybe gowns because I'm
going to be doing a lot of personalized
orders so I definitely still need my
each dress which you know that will come
you know when we buy it but yeah I was
so excited like this is the biggest
piece though into what I have to have to
be able to get my get my stuff going so
anyways I wanted to show you guys or
share with you guys I took a very
awesome picture of my husband standing
outside my window with it and then I
will take a really pretty picture of it
and it's the rose gold one which is like
amazing even got the color right
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we're gonna go home and then I don't
know for sure what kind of his on the
agenda
I know Olli was gonna send me off for a
little bit but so I'll probably take
some mommy time
Oh biggest thing um so remember when I
got other doctors I told you guys that
the doctor was saying about the MRI well
my insurance out of nowhere they did
approve this so I have my MRI which the
guy was asking he's like why are you
claustrophobic I'm like haha you best
knock me out if you're gonna stick to
that machine cuz I can't do it I have
had one other MRI and it was after our
car accident and I went inside the
machine like I literally went they had
to pull me out because I was freaking
out so so anyways my appointments on the
10th so I am relieved though that they
were able to get me in because that will
even if it's nothing to do with the
Bulge it maybe will give us a reason for
why my leg is my knees hurting me still
so anyways I am going to go into the
house I keep looking on this side
because that's what usually we're my
cameras on but I'm gonna get SRO and
goes to her on the toilet and then I
will check in with you guys it's been
much needed oh my goodness I am out of
here
truly I'm out of here
yes I am
on my date day for myself oh my gosh you
guys I have needed this time alone I
have had my sweet children for far too
many days in a row without a break and
it was starting to literally wear on me
like literally wear on me so I'm happy
to say all he was like he told me
yesterday actually he was like honey why
don't you take third well no actually
Wednesday anyways it was like why don't
you just take Thursday and you know have
your time down and I was like oh I mean
I can and anyways so I was like yeah I
think it will and
I'm gonna go look at Dollar Tree I need
to find some more notebooks for my dear
child
Ezra she is so I don't know what they're
doing here they're like doing a whole
bunch of construction I'm curious to see
if it's gonna be houses or if it's gonna
be apartments really curious to see I
think I personally think it's gonna be
apartments and so does Olli but then
sometimes you look at the foundations
and you're like oh maybe it's gonna be
houses because I live up in the West
Hills and up here it's really big houses
I'll have to take you guys on a little
Drive one day and show you guys some of
the houses around my neighborhood you're
huge like my house is considering small
too because honest my house is
considered which it is I mean it's not
like huge or anything but yeah anyways
so I need to go and get some notebooks
for Ezra because that girl can write and
troll and she can do she's like me
though like I can write like no one I
love writing drawing you know and I
don't really see her drawing so much
she's always trying to write and I used
to be the same way like I would like
make squiggles thinking that I was
writing in cursive at like 4 or 5 that I
can remember I'm sure probably was even
sooner than that
anyways but I remember always wanting to
write I always wanted a pen in my hand
and that's identical to her pen and
scissors and I am just like so afraid to
have the whole scissors scene because
she already had scissors one time I got
her safety scissors but of course I
guess there is no safety two scissors
because literally that child I gave her
her little pair of scissors and she she
cut a huge hole in my sheets thank God
it wasn't the mattress because I would
have screamed at that point that would
have not been funny but she cut a hole
in my in my brand new sheets that we had
just bought and then Omar had his
scissors which he was in preschool what
he did is and he cut a hole in his
brand-new shirt we just bought it I'm
like oh dude really
so I like get so nervous when they want
to use their scissors because I am like
waiting for one of them to come out with
a big old ball spot in their head or
something
yeah I could only mention because if it
was s rough my husband probably would
die and Omar Omar - I don't think Omar
would ever put scissors up to his hair
just because he knows and I mean if I
get really upset with him like he's not
letting me brush his hair or something i
lo straight-up be like okay I'm cutting
your hair I'm cutting it like now and if
I pull scissors out like to show him
like hey I'm gonna cut your hair he will
flip out like literally lose his crap
because he is anti censors obviously as
you guys can see his hair and again I'm
not a parent that really forces my kids
to do if it's not gonna hurt me
it isn't hurting anybody else in the
environment my kids can I allow my
children to make choices for themselves
at starting at a young age with guidance
and why I do this I even raised her mind
the exact same way and Jeremiah is at a
point you know in his life where now he
is a very mature and making his own
decisions what he wants to do where he
wants to go you know and things like
that and it's not like you know him
being a parent or an adult figure like
that's not the authorities we give them
but I've always raised my children with
guidance to be able to make decisions
for themselves because I'm not always
going to live with them when they're
older and I want them to have you know I
want them to have
their own image of knowing they can make
right decisions and healthy decisions
and things like that and have confidence
you know that really raises confidence
in somebody when you have trust in them
that they're going to make the right
decisions and that you're not gonna
doubt their worth or doubt their word or
their thinking and stuff so I have
always allowed Jeremiah to make like any
decisions that have to do with him and
his body just like he went through a
phase where nobody please don't back up
where he wanted to grow his hair out and
I totally was like do you even know what
traders know like like you're going to
look like a mushroom but I was like you
know what no he has to make these
choices for himself like it you know I'm
not always gonna be there to make these
choices so I like totally let him turn
it sorry
there's like a million cars and they all
have the red lights like they're gonna
back up but then they're not
none of them are backing up it's like
come on make your choice do what you
want to do but you need to speed it up
sunny anyways but I you know I like him
make that choice if that's what he wants
to do when he wants to grow his hair out
go for it it's not gonna hurt me
I may look a little silly but in the end
it's not gonna hurt me and it's not
gonna hurt anybody else so I did it and
he grew it out and he didn't like it
after a bit so you know he asked for his
hair to be cut that's exactly what we
did it's like everybody's had parked
weird it's like they're all on their
lines
I hate parking close to cars because I'm
always afraid that someone's gonna park
to close me and I'm not gonna be able to
get my buddy in the car and I'm gonna be
stuck anyways I'm gonna go into Dollar
Tree really quick I'm not gonna vlog
when I'm in there because I completely
forgot my vlogging stick I have no idea
so I will I'll check in with you guys so
as soon as I get back out Dollar Tree
that all should be like always like slim
to nothing and I always come here hoping
I'm gonna catch something and then I
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understand why it's like always like
they never have as much it's like even
the Kaiser one that's you know just down
the road from us literally like 15
minutes if that it's smaller than the
Dollar Tree here in Salem and I swear
they have more stuff like more nicer
newer stuff so I don't know if like if
all dollar trees are run differently I
mean for the most part I usually see
them carrying a lot of the same things
but then
I don't know where I'm going I really
don't driving around here oh my god and
now I'm gonna go to another oopsie gonna
need to find a parking spot for him no
net
just for a second
thanks but I got really bad cuz I can't
sure you guys want to get home because
some of the stuff is stuff I don't want
the kids to see because the babies
because so the first thing they got is I
got one of these it's really cool it's
like almost like 3d ish it's like little
gummy worms and then you just open it up
it's like a little container and I'm
gonna put like all of my my files and
all of that type of stuff in this I
think it would be nice to have a little
something that I can put my stuff in so
I got that I got me another notebook
since my daughter once again thought
that she needed to take my notebook so I
got me another one
I swear every time I go to Dollar Tree
buy me another one I was gonna buy her
one but then I was like why am I gonna
go and buy her one when she just took
mine and mine has like Zoe bull I
probably won't have any papers by the
time I get home but you know so I went
ahead and just pick this up and I like
it because it has a hard a hard top and
bottom so I can just flip it over and
use it kind of like a clipboard I got to
USA umm what else did I get
oh I picked up these so I got a Minnie
Mouse one then I also got a Mickey Mouse
one but I got these for Omar Ness right
to put like an extra pair of pants on
these I bought one of these packs and it
comes with three so I mean I'll have one
extra that I can just put in here but I
could put one of these each in each of
their bags and then I bought these these
I'm going to put in my room because I
had to take my trash bags out of my room
to put in here for them to use to go you
know like if they've got to go number
one I mean number two if they've got to
go number one it's
a little bit easier to discard it versus
with number two it's kind of like what
do you do and with these I can wipe like
if they go number one then I can discard
it and then just wipe it out and throw
that part away in the trash bags so I
went ahead and post up those I've got
another thing of hair ties because
between the three of us we go through
hair ties like water and the ones that I
got I bought some from Amazon and let me
tell you they are so cheap they're
constantly snapping on my fingers oh my
god they hurt so bad I picked up a
little treat for the babies so if they
can start going potty in the toilet
really good then they get a toy which I
kept them the same because I don't the
yelling and crying but I also could not
forget Jeremiah so I got him a little
flashlight I got it's nice actually so I
bought him a little something just so
you doesn't feel left out of course it's
gonna be like can I start crapping my
pants on certain tree yeah and then I
got tic tacs because every time that
they use the restroom and they actually
go then they'll get a tic tac I picked
up this to go on my nightstand since my
daughter decided to take a dinosaur and
have fun with it and take my candle and
dig it out with the dinosaur kale
I picked up me some gum seven wanting
some I picked up a get-well card for a
friend of mine
I picked up a water balloon so I can
make my mix for my mopping and I picked
up q-tips because oh my gosh I don't
know how to keep it and if any of you
all know me you know that I am a freak
about box in my ears I can't stand it oh
I can't stand it
especially when I wash my hair then it's
like it's just the worst and we have
been out of q-tips for a few days and
that is like doesn't work and normally I
get my q-tips from Walmart so they like
him like the thick ones but I wasn't
going to Walmart just get q-tips so I
said okay I'm going to get this so yeah
that was what I got from Dollar Tree
wasn't a lot of stuff I just seemed to
get a few things like I said I just was
more or less just some things that I
could get for the babies because I want
to be able to encourage especially Omar
I think Omar's gonna be the one that is
gonna need the most encouragement I
really don't see Ezra being
the one that's gonna have issues cuz
obviously she hasn't had issues yet but
I can see Omar being the one that's
gonna probably give me the most problems
so with that I'm like nope you are going
to get treats for Omar because I am
encouraging that little boy I wanted to
stop and get me some popcorn for tonight
you know I think I think I think we
actually might have okay amy is going
the opposite direction anyways I think
we have popcorn kernels if we do then
I'll just have all I make me some
popcorn tonight
pays don't feel like going to the store
I love my popcorn that I get from high
school but
eleska not me anyways seriously my
husband's gonna go not know he's been
home he's gonna be like I think I'm
gonna go and work on my shopping list
for a little bit and get that squared
away because I want to get that set up
so that way then come the first of the
month I will be able to go to my big
grocery shop and it's I just I mean I
was like I'm gonna be doing it all
because oh my gosh you guys I am
vlogging right now we're talking about
dinner and my husband just now texted me
and said what's for dinner is that true
or not but see that's just it
is he saying what's for dinner and it's
like this is where we have our hard
times because but then it's like we're
like getting to the Lin Italy in Italy
we're getting literally do the nits and
grits because I've been trying to use
everything we have before we do our big
grocery shop so
I I've been waiting to go reverser
shopping so we are like down to like
hardly anything which is good in a sense
because that means that we're not gonna
be wasting anything when we go grocery
shopping again but we need to clean out
like the frigerators and clean out the
freezer and get everything out anyways
let me call him really quick and find
out what we're doing we got we he was
like what's for dinner I'm like I don't
know what do you want for dinner and
he's like I don't know what if it sounds
good I'm like why do you do this to me I
was like what do you want for dinner so
we decided he's gonna make meatballs and
I'm gonna have a chicken salad that
sounds like playin dumb and the kids are
gonna eat meatballs in his belly
anyways
I'm gonna go I think it's it at the park
for a little bit and work on my
grocery list because needs to be made I
still can't get over the Holly bought me
the market maker I'm so excited like I
think I've said that about a thousand
trillion times that I'm so excited I
just kept thinking them all I thank you
baby thank you thank you he's like
you're welcome he's like you deserve it
Amy he's like you have done so good and
I'm so proud of you
I was like I'm so grateful for you I was
like you know you honestly he he does
everything to make my dreams come true
and he told me when I was in Egypt when
I met him the first time he told me I
promise you and I stand here and make
this promise to you that I will always
do my best to make your dreams come true
and he's like your wishes
we'll be doing but I'm gonna go he he
said you know my your wishes are my
responsibility to make come true and
honestly you guys he's done not you know
he has seriously done that from the
get-go and I can't I just I love him so
much he he is a blessing to me and I
could not be more thankful that God
brought this man into my life and made
him my best friend but my lover I mean
he is just my everything and you know
sometimes not sometimes but there's been
a few times when I'm sure everybody has
gotten to that point where you think in
your mind especially when your spouse is
out you know like when he's gone and
driving from wherever to wherever
sometimes I get that that scary feeling
like what if something happened you know
god forbid you know that something
happened to him and he didn't make it or
something I would be so lost I really
honest to god would be so lost because
he is my other half you know he is my
heart
and so I always you know when he's gone
out of the home away from us I always am
asking odd you know please protect him
and you know put your hands around him
and bring him home safely and I always
pray for my husband because you know I
never want to see something ever
happened to my husband and I know we all
have our time that you know we will die
you know that's a given we're not
pulling forever but we better both die
gray and old and our hundreds on the
same bed holding each other's hands
because I don't want to live a day
without him and he says he doesn't want
to ever live a day without me so we have
this planned out that we're gonna live
in to our hundreds and then when it's
time for us to die we will die have a
little die together that's just how it's
gonna be but no I mean to get all like
dreary but you know I
I'm sure everybody has had that thought
from time to time like what if something
happened to my spouse you know and I've
had that thought from you know not all
the time I got but you know but I always
do always pray for my husband when he is
out of my home like I am always asking
for safety and you know for protection
and all of that because you never know
and like I said if something god forbid
ever happened to my husband I would be I
would be gone like I would literally
just die so he's just he's an amazing
amazing person he's a complete blessing
and I know when we very first got
together there was so many people that
you know were against us and
unfortunately like I said there are
still so many people against us you know
and they're so you know confused about
how I could be with somebody and like
him you know that he's
from the Middle East and you know I get
word through the grapevine you know told
to me that you know people say that all
he abuses me and he physically beats me
and I just sit there and I just I have
to laugh and you know I'm just like if
you guys only knew my life it's far from
the farthest thing that you all have
said but you know nobody has nobody that
has made those comments have ever taken
time to really know my husband on the
level of being a human and not just
being a person from the Middle East and
it's so sad because I know so many great
people from the Middle East and how they
all get clumped into one you know one
balloon that one middle-eastern is bad
so they're all bad it's so sad because
there's so many amazing Middle Eastern
people out there it just takes people to
take their visors off and see people for
who they are and not just because they
are a certain race or religion or
whatever it might be and so it's just
something that I honestly get so sad
over because you know like I said I've
had people make the most horrific
comments about my husband and it breaks
my heart not because it hurts his
feelings because he like I mean you know
it has to bother him at some point you
know because anybody that's gonna sit in
make comments when you don't even know
the person I'd be like dude are you
serious right now but you know he
doesn't let it get to him he's got very
thick skin and he's just like all right
well people can say as they please it
really doesn't hurt my feelings Amy
because those people don't even know who
I am and if it really tickles our
feathers and makes them sleep good at
night to say negative things about me
then let them you know the one person
that matters the most to know who I am
is you and my children and that's it
other than that nobody else needs to
know
he's like you know I don't live my life
for other people
I seriously lived my life for you and my
family and I'm just like I know but it
still just breaks my heart you know that
sometimes those things are said about
you and they don't even know what
they're saying like they have no clue
the type of person you are and so here
is my view you guys I've been sitting
here working again for a little bit you
guys know this is like my favorite place
to go I just love it starting to get a
little bit dark it's almost four o'clock
so it's getting to that time heading
home because I'm gonna be going with you
guys I'm so excited I can't wait
anyways so I am going to close my vlog
for the night because I'm gonna go home
and I have all the names written out
already for my giveaway so now I just
gotta cut them really quick and they're
all right here in this boogie book um
anyways so I am going to be heading home
here in just a few minutes and then I'm
gonna get everything set up for my live
and I'll probably eat after my life yeah
I'll probably eat after my life because
I'm not really even hungry
I've been still been sippin on this
thing all day I'm serious
it takes me forever to drink good coffee
but anyways so I'll probably just eat
once I get off of my life I think that's
it and then I tonight it's bath tonight
for the babies and shower night for
Jeremiah so my nights gonna be like busy
busy from the moment I huh from the
moment I get home till bedtime because
bedtime is now remember eight o'clock so
everything is just getting a boo boo boo
boo I'm trying to get everything done
but it's all good you know what that's
what makes my nights amazing is being
able to have children and a husband to
do these things for so anyways I hope
you guys enjoyed this vlog today I think
it was a little bit better than the last
couple because the last couple I thought
was like homebound but I hope you guys
enjoyed I really hope you guys had a
wonderful day to day I cannot wait to go
live and chat with all of you guys and
do a little bit of catching up tonight
so I will see you guys tomorrow bright
and shiny in the morning until then
sweet dreams you guys bye bye
